There are a few people, that i wish i could be like one of them, but i know that i will never be. The distance between us is very far apart. And because of that, deep inside in my heart i know no matter how hard i've try, i know i will never be able to catch up with any of you.
I do envy them while i alone live under the shadow of them, and i could never get out of there. Even if i could, i still have another shadow that had been covering me all the while - my best friend. But nothing can i say now, it is over. I do not belong in there anymore.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Anthonian Night
Stepping back into my alma mater after 3 years leaving the school is something unexplainable. I mean i am not going back to play badminton or to pick someone up 'cause it will be a different story then. And it doesn't and never feel right because everything had change ever since i decided to stay and completed my form 6, which ended up me in UTP now instead of UMS or England.
Back in 2006 in COMPLEC (Combined Prefect-Librarian Education Camp) a year after it was held in SUFES camp site with durian trees and in the middle of jungle waterfall, I tried to proposed to have a night activity for the camp, since it is a 2-day camp so I think why not. But the idea was rejected by the seniors back then. Despite being Camp Commander but I don't have that much power to influence the head of prefect and librarian into this idea.
And so in 2007, finally they have a night activity, a BBQ night. A very enjoyable night indeed but somehow, it was raining the whole session. Although it did not kill the fun everyone was having, and again the idea came back to me to re-propose the idea of having a performance night for the next camp and this time i made nothing to stop me from doing it.
When i first organize Anthonian Night back in 2008 for APLEC (Anthonian Prefect LEadership Camp) - and don't ask why i did not have the suppose-to-be 1oth COMPLEC, the whole idea was to have a night where Anthonians (the guys, the girls, the young, the new) can have fun, be creative, be lame, be crazy, be anything, but at the same time, enjoy it because the night doesn't belong to the committees anymore. It belongs to the participants, they take over everything just for that night. So the success of the night is fully and totally depending on the hands of the participants. And i insisted to make a theme for it as 'A Night to Remember', well, it's not really an official theme or something because i asked the performers to have their performance based on it.
And of course, they never fail you and never will. In fact they will do better than what you have expected them to do at first place. I mean, where do you find such a lame yet entertaining, crazy yet fun, making you "boo" and yet "that was crazy" performances.
Like any usual thing, to get approval for it is ain't an easy job. Teacher advisor Mr Santjit Singh just let us do whatever we want but keeping him out of trouble later while some@most teachers concern about our performance attires, styles and inappropriate this and that. So you see, convincing them is not an easy task. Well in the end, we did it and on 23/7/2011 the juniors organized the 4th Anthonian Night under the name of COMPLEC.
Besides that, what making us that special is that we create the bonding between students and teachers, between the seniors and juniors, between Anthonians and SMK Saint Anthony, where nobody can and could explain how it happens. And when we say we miss school, we meant we miss the teachers, the class, the gang, the noise, the crazy stuffs, everything, including being in the school. It might sounds crazy but that's the fact since nobody wishes they could go back in time to be in the school and enjoy the ride all over again. And it is fair to say Anthonian Night is and could be one of reasons where these bonds are created within everyone.
Another reason why Anthonian Night together with COMPLEC make a good and memorable activity for both committees and participants is that we are given 100% control of the event flow, the food, the games, the talks, etc. So you can imagine how it's like to prepare everything by yourself with little help from teachers. And by the end of the day, you will feel proud of what you had done to make things work perfectly as planned. The best part is that you can plan it how/whatever you think it is suitable for the campers without worrying much about restriction from the teachers. And because of that, the idea of having a night to be remembered, Anthonian Night, is born and get approval easily.
"Let the boys have fun" said Mr Chew. As long as there is no trouble Mr Chew will definitely walk away with a smile. Although he couldn't make it to my Anthonian Night (represented by Mr Santjit, Mr Kumar, Miss Jaye, Miss Chong and Miss Tan) but seeing him being able to attend this year Anthonian Night despite some difficulty do heat up the spirit of everyone, including us the old boys. Do worry, he do enjoyed the night like anyone of us did. :)
Nevertheless I never regret coming back to school to witness another great success of the juniors, despite being one and only from my age since my AJKs couldn't make it (I think). Too bad I don't have the chance to be on stage with guitar again and so 'congratz' to Nuramirul who once again sings Januari on stage. :P
Well, i believe i stepped into my school for the very last time for this kind of thing. I don't know if i could make it for the 5th Anthonian Night, or if there will be the another one, because most probably i will out somewhere having my internship by then and the following years graduation and start working. Yet, i believe a left a legacy that shall be continue for a very long time. I don't know if i wanted to be remember as the guy who started it but for sure, I want Anthonian Night to be remain inside COMPLEC for a very long run.
Just like the song "Anthonian Spirit" written by an Indian senior in 1999 for the St. John but now has become a part of everyone, nobody knows who is the song writer anymore but the song remains in the heart of many. Although originally the song is meant to sing with guitar maybe in a campfire style to build friendship and also the love for the school but still, after 10 years people are still singing it.
With that, I bow out with my hat off. From here, you will take the pride, the walk and the talk.
Anthonian Forever
Back in 2006 in COMPLEC (Combined Prefect-Librarian Education Camp) a year after it was held in SUFES camp site with durian trees and in the middle of jungle waterfall, I tried to proposed to have a night activity for the camp, since it is a 2-day camp so I think why not. But the idea was rejected by the seniors back then. Despite being Camp Commander but I don't have that much power to influence the head of prefect and librarian into this idea.
And so in 2007, finally they have a night activity, a BBQ night. A very enjoyable night indeed but somehow, it was raining the whole session. Although it did not kill the fun everyone was having, and again the idea came back to me to re-propose the idea of having a performance night for the next camp and this time i made nothing to stop me from doing it.
When i first organize Anthonian Night back in 2008 for APLEC (Anthonian Prefect LEadership Camp) - and don't ask why i did not have the suppose-to-be 1oth COMPLEC, the whole idea was to have a night where Anthonians (the guys, the girls, the young, the new) can have fun, be creative, be lame, be crazy, be anything, but at the same time, enjoy it because the night doesn't belong to the committees anymore. It belongs to the participants, they take over everything just for that night. So the success of the night is fully and totally depending on the hands of the participants. And i insisted to make a theme for it as 'A Night to Remember', well, it's not really an official theme or something because i asked the performers to have their performance based on it.
And of course, they never fail you and never will. In fact they will do better than what you have expected them to do at first place. I mean, where do you find such a lame yet entertaining, crazy yet fun, making you "boo" and yet "that was crazy" performances.
Like any usual thing, to get approval for it is ain't an easy job. Teacher advisor Mr Santjit Singh just let us do whatever we want but keeping him out of trouble later while some@most teachers concern about our performance attires, styles and inappropriate this and that. So you see, convincing them is not an easy task. Well in the end, we did it and on 23/7/2011 the juniors organized the 4th Anthonian Night under the name of COMPLEC.
Besides that, what making us that special is that we create the bonding between students and teachers, between the seniors and juniors, between Anthonians and SMK Saint Anthony, where nobody can and could explain how it happens. And when we say we miss school, we meant we miss the teachers, the class, the gang, the noise, the crazy stuffs, everything, including being in the school. It might sounds crazy but that's the fact since nobody wishes they could go back in time to be in the school and enjoy the ride all over again. And it is fair to say Anthonian Night is and could be one of reasons where these bonds are created within everyone.
Another reason why Anthonian Night together with COMPLEC make a good and memorable activity for both committees and participants is that we are given 100% control of the event flow, the food, the games, the talks, etc. So you can imagine how it's like to prepare everything by yourself with little help from teachers. And by the end of the day, you will feel proud of what you had done to make things work perfectly as planned. The best part is that you can plan it how/whatever you think it is suitable for the campers without worrying much about restriction from the teachers. And because of that, the idea of having a night to be remembered, Anthonian Night, is born and get approval easily.
"Let the boys have fun" said Mr Chew. As long as there is no trouble Mr Chew will definitely walk away with a smile. Although he couldn't make it to my Anthonian Night (represented by Mr Santjit, Mr Kumar, Miss Jaye, Miss Chong and Miss Tan) but seeing him being able to attend this year Anthonian Night despite some difficulty do heat up the spirit of everyone, including us the old boys. Do worry, he do enjoyed the night like anyone of us did. :)
Nevertheless I never regret coming back to school to witness another great success of the juniors, despite being one and only from my age since my AJKs couldn't make it (I think). Too bad I don't have the chance to be on stage with guitar again and so 'congratz' to Nuramirul who once again sings Januari on stage. :P
Well, i believe i stepped into my school for the very last time for this kind of thing. I don't know if i could make it for the 5th Anthonian Night, or if there will be the another one, because most probably i will out somewhere having my internship by then and the following years graduation and start working. Yet, i believe a left a legacy that shall be continue for a very long time. I don't know if i wanted to be remember as the guy who started it but for sure, I want Anthonian Night to be remain inside COMPLEC for a very long run.
Just like the song "Anthonian Spirit" written by an Indian senior in 1999 for the St. John but now has become a part of everyone, nobody knows who is the song writer anymore but the song remains in the heart of many. Although originally the song is meant to sing with guitar maybe in a campfire style to build friendship and also the love for the school but still, after 10 years people are still singing it.
With that, I bow out with my hat off. From here, you will take the pride, the walk and the talk.
Anthonian Forever
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
the 5 steps
First time asking somebody out for dinner but don't know how? Or you simply don't know what to do on your dates? Here's how and what I think you should do.
Step 1: asking
Ask her/him yourself. It would be better if you ask with your mouth (including via phone call) because that way people might find it hard to say the most demoralizing English word - NO, except you ask at the wrong time, he/she has something important going on or they have another date. And it wouldn't look sincere if you text anyone to ask them out, but maybe that's quite common among us in Malaysia since text-ing one another had become lifestyle here. Maybe you can start by asking if he/she is free that day. And as the conversation goes on, just ask if they are interested to go out on a date with you (warning, some take the word DATE seriously, like dating, I mean dating is not for couple only right. Friends do date too) or in a simpler way, go out on lunch/dinner with you. If he/she is unavailable, don't give up yet. Change the time, the date, the place or whatever it is. And the key strategy : Be comfortable and be confident.
Step 2: planning
If it is a yes from the beginning, plan your date well. I mean, surely you don't want to spend the whole night/day with her in a restaurant only right. So plan it. What are you going to do after your dinner/lunch? Normally(or shall i say standard/common way) you will bring her for a walk (in a mall) or maybe for a movie. And it is OK, if she is really free afterward. So to be more well planned, (if you are a GUY asking her out or even you are been ask by her, it works either way) suggest that both of you go for a walk/movie after dinner. See, it won't be ended up badly at least. ;-)
And please, choose a good restaurant so that you two can talk to each other (less noise pollution) and less disturbance. :P
Step 3: dining time
Both of you order the food, you chit chat while waiting-and-later-eating the food. So take note on what you want to talk about. You don't want to spend the time talking on football all the time, or how's life at work, or how many cats/dogs you have etc. Think of a lot of topics to talk about. Even you have a good common topic, it might not last long. And it is not nice having a single person talking all the time so be smart. ;-)
And take note, the GUY should do the paying(i'm talking about the first date) while the GIRL 'would like to' pay but allowing the guy to do the honor. So guy be gentleman and girl be smart. But if the girl is paying instead, well, good luck. :-/
Step 4: the walk/movie
Personally i would like to suggest you to go for a walk in a park, near a lake or even town with interesting stuffs but here in MALAYSIA it's hard to have/find such place so probably you just forget it(or else you have a better idea than this). So the best way might be go for a walk in a mall(and remember to have something to talk about) and later go for a movie together. This time the guy can still do the paying but most probably the GIRL should insist on paying. But if he is more gentleman then why not? :P
Step 5: the end
And so it comes to the end of the date. You bring her home, say good night, and then you go home and text her you are home and you enjoy the night well(she might just waiting for you text too). With a good night well spent, it is possible to have a second date. :D
So good luck. :)
Step 1: asking
Ask her/him yourself. It would be better if you ask with your mouth (including via phone call) because that way people might find it hard to say the most demoralizing English word - NO, except you ask at the wrong time, he/she has something important going on or they have another date. And it wouldn't look sincere if you text anyone to ask them out, but maybe that's quite common among us in Malaysia since text-ing one another had become lifestyle here. Maybe you can start by asking if he/she is free that day. And as the conversation goes on, just ask if they are interested to go out on a date with you (warning, some take the word DATE seriously, like dating, I mean dating is not for couple only right. Friends do date too) or in a simpler way, go out on lunch/dinner with you. If he/she is unavailable, don't give up yet. Change the time, the date, the place or whatever it is. And the key strategy : Be comfortable and be confident.
Step 2: planning
If it is a yes from the beginning, plan your date well. I mean, surely you don't want to spend the whole night/day with her in a restaurant only right. So plan it. What are you going to do after your dinner/lunch? Normally(or shall i say standard/common way) you will bring her for a walk (in a mall) or maybe for a movie. And it is OK, if she is really free afterward. So to be more well planned, (if you are a GUY asking her out or even you are been ask by her, it works either way) suggest that both of you go for a walk/movie after dinner. See, it won't be ended up badly at least. ;-)
And please, choose a good restaurant so that you two can talk to each other (less noise pollution) and less disturbance. :P
Step 3: dining time
Both of you order the food, you chit chat while waiting-and-later-eating the food. So take note on what you want to talk about. You don't want to spend the time talking on football all the time, or how's life at work, or how many cats/dogs you have etc. Think of a lot of topics to talk about. Even you have a good common topic, it might not last long. And it is not nice having a single person talking all the time so be smart. ;-)
And take note, the GUY should do the paying(i'm talking about the first date) while the GIRL 'would like to' pay but allowing the guy to do the honor. So guy be gentleman and girl be smart. But if the girl is paying instead, well, good luck. :-/
Step 4: the walk/movie
Personally i would like to suggest you to go for a walk in a park, near a lake or even town with interesting stuffs but here in MALAYSIA it's hard to have/find such place so probably you just forget it(or else you have a better idea than this). So the best way might be go for a walk in a mall(and remember to have something to talk about) and later go for a movie together. This time the guy can still do the paying but most probably the GIRL should insist on paying. But if he is more gentleman then why not? :P
Step 5: the end
And so it comes to the end of the date. You bring her home, say good night, and then you go home and text her you are home and you enjoy the night well(she might just waiting for you text too). With a good night well spent, it is possible to have a second date. :D
So good luck. :)
Thursday, July 7, 2011
My first ever video, and it's on Youtube!
I did a recording the other day, u can view it here. Please click the like button on youtube page for me and thanks a lot. :D
Or u might just watch it down here, and like it in youtube later. :D
Or u might just watch it down here, and like it in youtube later. :D
Sunday, July 3, 2011
life time freedom?
For guys, they normally need to make up their mind on three decisions.
1. Single vs In a Relationship
Just face it. While some guys prefer to be single because they could enjoy their life, hanging out friends, knowing more and more hot girls, being so carefree, but some prefer to share it with someone special.
The problem would be, when you being single for so long, all of your friends started dating, there will be a point where you might feel lonely and think maybe you should start looking for "the one". And then you'll think, you might ended alone as you grow older, which might also rush you into the process.
But same thing goes to those committed into a relationship, argument, disagreement and etc will take place eventually. And at that point, it is either making you realize that this girl could be and could not be the one for you. Besides that, this might taken away all your time with your friends, buddies, family, because you will eventually spend most of your free time with her, until both of you argue, again. And the whole process continues. :P
2. BF-GF vs Husband-Wife
When you are being very long in a relationship, and you decided that 'hey she is the one for me', eventually you will be thinking about marrying her and have your own family.
And when you do, you just automatically lock yourself to her, it is about the same as being in a relationship status but she just lock you tighter in everything you wanted to do. And you might wanna be extra careful if you are meeting another girl, you don't want to get any trouble explaining to "who why where when what" questions later. ;)
3. Hang out vs Go home
Well, even if you friends ask you to hang out after work, maybe you could join a few times at first but slowly it decreases. Why?
At some point, you will eventually choose to go home because she cooks/orders food for dinner. And after dinner, trying to go outside to hang out will be quite impossible, except for her to follow you around or you don't have a child yet for family bonding or night time. :P
But don't worry, it's your choice though guys. The best part? You marry the woman you love, and hopefully she understands and will not lock you that bad. :P
1. Single vs In a Relationship
Just face it. While some guys prefer to be single because they could enjoy their life, hanging out friends, knowing more and more hot girls, being so carefree, but some prefer to share it with someone special.
The problem would be, when you being single for so long, all of your friends started dating, there will be a point where you might feel lonely and think maybe you should start looking for "the one". And then you'll think, you might ended alone as you grow older, which might also rush you into the process.
But same thing goes to those committed into a relationship, argument, disagreement and etc will take place eventually. And at that point, it is either making you realize that this girl could be and could not be the one for you. Besides that, this might taken away all your time with your friends, buddies, family, because you will eventually spend most of your free time with her, until both of you argue, again. And the whole process continues. :P
2. BF-GF vs Husband-Wife
When you are being very long in a relationship, and you decided that 'hey she is the one for me', eventually you will be thinking about marrying her and have your own family.
And when you do, you just automatically lock yourself to her, it is about the same as being in a relationship status but she just lock you tighter in everything you wanted to do. And you might wanna be extra careful if you are meeting another girl, you don't want to get any trouble explaining to "who why where when what" questions later. ;)
3. Hang out vs Go home
Well, even if you friends ask you to hang out after work, maybe you could join a few times at first but slowly it decreases. Why?
At some point, you will eventually choose to go home because she cooks/orders food for dinner. And after dinner, trying to go outside to hang out will be quite impossible, except for her to follow you around or you don't have a child yet for family bonding or night time. :P
But don't worry, it's your choice though guys. The best part? You marry the woman you love, and hopefully she understands and will not lock you that bad. :P
Saturday, July 2, 2011
the other day..
For over 5 years, i've been living in a lie that i created for myself. And finally i've decided to seek the truth.
I messaged this person, hoping i will get the answer that i think i already know. But all i hope is that this person could tell me the truth herself. Perhaps it could heal me better than ever with that.
But guess what. She didn't even care to reply. And obviously i know she could because from 'something she did' i knew the fact that she is not so busy doing anything and ignoring me. If she could ask me why i wanted to know, so why she just couldn't give me the damn answer.
Well, it's all done now. I removed her as friend, i deleted her from my contact. Before you judge me, you better get the stories right. That's it i guess. I do hope not to see her again, or else i might just walk away.
I messaged this person, hoping i will get the answer that i think i already know. But all i hope is that this person could tell me the truth herself. Perhaps it could heal me better than ever with that.
But guess what. She didn't even care to reply. And obviously i know she could because from 'something she did' i knew the fact that she is not so busy doing anything and ignoring me. If she could ask me why i wanted to know, so why she just couldn't give me the damn answer.
Well, it's all done now. I removed her as friend, i deleted her from my contact. Before you judge me, you better get the stories right. That's it i guess. I do hope not to see her again, or else i might just walk away.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Who's This Guy?
Probably you might wonder, who's this guy?
Well, the answer is simple - me.
Win Sin's the name. I'm just a normal guy.
Oh, this blog? Well, just say, i wanna write something i see or feel or think about three or five or ten facts regarding something. Maybe more and other than three, five and ten, too.
I might as well post something extra regarding myself too though.
Stay Tune.
Well, the answer is simple - me.
Win Sin's the name. I'm just a normal guy.
Oh, this blog? Well, just say, i wanna write something i see or feel or think about three or five or ten facts regarding something. Maybe more and other than three, five and ten, too.
I might as well post something extra regarding myself too though.
Stay Tune.
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